Grandma’s Silver Spoon

Grandma's Spoon

I wasn’t born with a silver spoon in my mouth. In fact, when I was growing up, I often heard adults say that I had a difficult childhood. I somehow understood what they were saying to be true, but heck, it was all I knew. When I first told David, my partner of nearly 20 years, about my tumultuous upbringing, he was shocked. You see, my emotionally volatile mother, whom I loved dearly, was seemingly strong on the outside but fragile inside. My father, who was legally blind, was severely limited in his ability to play the role of dad as I longed for it to be played. Both of them had hot tempers that often led to loud and sometimes physical confrontations. When I was seven, they separated, and they divorced soon after. Much of the rest of my childhood was spent consoling my mother, helping her find happiness not only in her own life but in mine. My father, meanwhile, depended on me to take care of him. I learned to do his shopping, make his meals, clean his house, pay his bills, and balance his checkbook by the age of nine. In many ways, the roles of parents and child were sadly reversed. Finally, when I was 14 and life with my mother and her third husband in their horribly tension-filled household became unbearable, I left.

But there was one person I could always depend on to be there for me: my beloved grandmother. She didn’t need me to give her emotional support or take care of her. She just needed me to be her grandson and accept her unconditional love.

I have countless memories of her. She cut a fine figure, had tightly curled hair, and always wore stockings and a dress–usually one that she’d sewn herself. She’d never go out in public unless she looked just right. She was a lady—a very independent lady—who was as comfortable moving a heavy piece of furniture or hammering a nail as she was making a cake from scratch.

My most vivid recollections of her are in the kitchen. Oddly, I don’t remember her cooking; it’s possible she wasn’t very good. But her baking was incredible. And there were three necessary components to everything she made—her big brown crock; her wooden spoon; and her scratched, misshapen silver spoon, which I cherish to this day. I remember seeing that spoon in every kitchen my grandmother ever baked in. It was like a constant friend or a favorite family member.

I remember Grandma baking buttermilk bread for sandwiches and scooping the flour with her silver spoon. I’d sit in the kitchen, watching her mixing all the ingredients, and wait for the bread to rise. The process fascinated me, and once the loaf went in the oven the smell of it baking was pure comfort to me. I sat on pins and needles anxious for the warm slice of bread with butter that would soon be mine. And at Christmastime she’d bake me a special sweet treat by shaping the same dough into rolls and studding them with colorful candied fruit.

Then there were the times she’d bake a cake. She’d sit with her big crock on her lap, beating the batter inside with her silver spoon. After she’d poured the batter into the pan, there was always, miraculously, just enough left for me to “test” with the spoon. That spoon was so thin and beat up it was amazing that I didn’t cut myself. But just as my grandmother expertly wielded it, so I learned to masterfully maneuver it.

Grandma's Recipe
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I recently happened upon her recipe for raisin pudding—a dessert she made all the time—written in her own hand. I’m not sure if I should call it a recipe, though, because it includes only the ingredients. It doesn’t say what size pan to bake it in or what temperature to set the oven to. Maybe we were destined to guess, or maybe just expected to know. I later found the same recipe, entitled “Grandma’s Raisin Pudding,” in my mother’s handwriting. Her version includes the missing pieces. It says to drop the flour-and-sugar mixture into the syrup with a “teaspoon,” which makes me chuckle because I know the “teaspoon” referred to is Grandma’s old silver spoon that I watched her use every time she made this dessert. She’d scoop it into the wet batter and then drop it into the waiting hot syrup without bothering to shape the individual puddings. But once they emerged from the oven, they were almost perfectly round biscuits sitting atop the most delicious river of thick, rich syrup. In my child’s mind, her spoon had special powers. It could take blobs of dough and shape them into impeccable biscuits. It’s one of my very favorite memories of her.

According to my grandmother, the spoon was handed down from her mother’s mother. It supposedly originated in England, but that part has always seemed suspect to me since it’s rather a grand origin for something owned by our humble family. As a child, I simply couldn’t fathom how anything could be so old, so ancient.

When my grandmother passed on, the old spoon was handed down to me. It remains one of my greatest treasures. So far from glamorous, yet beautiful to me, it rests comfortably among our set of perfect silverware. It’s this spoon that I pull out anytime I want to try a new recipe or make a beautiful meal for David or just sense that I might need some extra support in the kitchen. Is it my lucky spoon? I can’t answer that. But I can say that I go into a panic when I want to cook something special and can’t find it.  Somehow I feel I need it to achieve even the slightest success in the kitchen.

Maybe it’s a crutch, or maybe it’s just a piece of metal that evokes wonderful memories of me and my grandmother in the kitchen. It doesn’t really matter, as I can’t promise a decent meal without it.

This essay has been updated. Originally published December 20, 2012.

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  1. Hi Guys, it’s me again. I’ve had the pleasure of reading David’s blahgs and enjoy them immensely—have made lots of your recipes (usually desserts), LOL, and our waistlines show it. I’m assuming that the perfect recipe for the raisin pudding has eluded you? Shame not being able to pass it on—although you do have the spoon to cherish. I know I have several recipes of my mother’ s that I’ve managed to reproduce, but somehow they aren’t quite as good – although I do get complimented on them. My other half has a few from his grandmother that he cherishes and dusts off, now and then. Still hanging in and so far have managed not to poison one another, LOL . Keep up the good work, ’cause I know that you depend on one another, the same as we do.

    1. Dear Mr. Plumridge, it’s always a pleasure to hear from you. Alas, we have not found the raisin pudding recipe. We feared that it has been lost to the ages. If we ever come across it, or find a suitable substitute, you will be the first people we contact. Keep each other close, and feed each other luscious desserts!

      1. Did you ever think that without that magical ingredient (Grandma’s love) that was poured into the pudding, every time she made it – that even if you managed to duplicate it exactly, it would never taste exactly the same? I use my Grandma’s and my Mom’s recipe for shortbread every Christmas. Everyone else thinks it is wonderful and light and super tasty – but to me, it’s NOT the same. A lot of the baker’s / cook’s love goes into making special things and that can’t be exactly duplicated by anyone else. OH, and by the way I’m not Mr. Plumridge – that would be my Dad 🙂 You two keep up the good work and work whatever magic it takes to keep things going and the kitchen full of wonderful things.

  2. I love this story. My grandmothers were the anchors of my childhood, so I always love hearing other people’s positive grandmother stories. I’m glad you got the spoon, TO. Nobody thought to give me anything after my grandmothers died. But oh do I have the memories!

  3. How wonderful! For me, it’s my mother’s two-tined fork. She’s long gone now, but every time I use it, it makes me smile and remember her. It’s bent and mangled from use, but she turned out some pretty great meals with it. Thanks for the walk down memory lane…and keep cherishing that spoon.

  4. What a great story! I’m glad you got what you needed from your grandmother and can even hold it in your hand in the form of that spoon.

    It makes me think of my great grandmother’s and great aunt’s table. They were not prosperous but they came from French fur trappers who migrated down to Maine. We lived in New York and could only visit them in the Summer.

    On their table they had a jar of spoons. They were very ordinary, every day spoons but they must have been silver. From when and where I’m not sure but over the generations of daily use they had worn down so that they were no longer bowl- but spade-shaped with one long side and one short side as lips had worn them down.

    I don’t know what happened to that jar of spoons. I suppose some one of the antique dealers who made routine calls to see if there was anything being sold ended up with them. But they’ll never have the precious memories that should accompany them. Those I’ll always have so I can really appreciate how fortunate you are to have your grandmother’s spoon!

  5. Hi David, What a tremendous story! Beautiful. It’s amazing how our life experiences, good or bad shape us into who we are and take us down the path we’re destined for. I met you at the first annual FBC conference in Hockley Valley, Ontario. I was so thrilled to meet you, even though I really didn’t know much about you and had only enough time to glance through your site to familiarize myself with the guest speakers. But I could sense your creativity, sensitivity, geneous spirit and joie de vivre. It was great meeting you. Your writing is very inspiring. I just love reading your postings and articles. All the very best to you and The One. I hope we will meet again.


    1. Thank you, Silvana, it was lovely meeting you, too. I really enjoyed the conference. It was so well organized and instructive. I came away having learned so much.

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