Saints, Cakes, and Redemption

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I’m hardly what you’d call devout. Baptized Presbyterian, despite being Greek on my mother’s side, I know next to nothing about saints. I do, however, know a thing or two about cakes—including the fleeting, unhealthy way they can fill an empty ache in your life, something I admit I felt as I sat in my parents’ house last summer, listlessly paging through a Greek cookbook while my kindergartener slept down the hall.

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The problem wasn’t just that August night. This time last year, things weren’t going well. Work was scarce, household finances unstable. But even money woes seemed preferable when set against my emotional state. Drained and depressed, I’d sunk into a lingering malaise. Maybe it was the realization that I was turning 40. Maybe the role of Restaurant Widow was taking its toll: I almost never saw my husband, a sommelier. Come Sundays, we were too exhausted to connect or even care that we didn’t. Plowing through the weeks with something akin to single-parent status, I sat alone most nights feeling irrelevant and irritable, full of too many thoughts and too much hunger.

Searching for comfort, I immersed myself in the desserts section of the book. A simple spice cake caught my eye. The ingredient list was nothing much—it included the walnuts, cinnamon, and cloves typical of Greek pastry—but the name of the recipe intrigued me, as did its legend.

Called a phanouropita (pronounced “fan-oo-RO-pee-ta”), the cake honors the Greek Orthodox Saint Phanourios, a martyred soldier whose icon, lost for centuries, was found in perfect condition under the rubble of a ransacked church in Rhodes in the early 1500s. Since then, worshippers, mostly women, have followed a tradition of baking and giving away this cake when they want to locate something missing. Phanourios, whose name relates to the Greek verb “I reveal,” apparently will find things for you, but you have to ask him. Sweetly.

Phanourios appealed to me. In his icon, he holds a lit candle, the promise of revelation, and I was sick of sitting in the dark. In truth, I felt lost. Maybe this saint and his cake could help.

A black and white quote by Phanourious Quote starting with 'I found women who swore that...'The phanouropita should have been easy to make. It’s a dump-and-mix recipe, and traditionally there are only nine ingredients. Chopping nuts looked like the biggest challenge. I was okay with that. I carefully measured oil and orange juice, added sugar. I splashed in the right dose of Metaxa, its deep, dried-fruit aroma reminding me of the gravelly voices of rural yiayias, women with hard-knock lives who needed the shot of brandy more than I did. I watched tawny streaks of spice disperse through the flour as I cranked my sifter. And then I started mixing, by hand.

According to the recipe I used that day, custom required beating the batter with a wooden spoon for nine full minutes. (Nine, I found out later, are the levels of holy angels in the Church.) After two or three minutes, I was losing enthusiasm. At six minutes I started equating the task with penance. By the nine-minute mark, I figured I’d atoned for a lifetime of sin but found myself in hell anyway. My arm was on fire.

The batter had a strange consistency, gummy and dense. I coaxed it to the corners of a loaf pan. I figured it was a flop but couldn’t know unless I baked it. First, however, some ceremony was in order. I placed a printout of Phanourios’s icon on the counter and searched my mind for something the saint could retrieve for me. My husband wasn’t exactly missing; I hadn’t lost my keys or wallet. I could use another paying job, but that seemed too ambitious to start with.

In the end, I failed to ask for anything. I did, however, crouch in front of the oven to make a timid sign of the cross. When my son wandered into the kitchen and asked what I was doing, I quickly straightened and stuffed my hands in my pockets. “Nothing,” I said. “Baking a cake.”

The cake smelled like something from my grandmother’s kitchen. Cutting the traditional nine slices (those angels again), I ate one to be sure it tasted good, then bagged the others. On Sunday I planned to visit Manhattan’s Greek Orthodox Cathedral, where I’d never been before. I had no idea who I’d give the cake to, but it turned out not to matter—encountering a man begging in front of the church (he almost seemed planted there to test me), I realized I’d forgotten to bring the cake along. I gave him a dollar, sat through three hours of service, and went home. I did venture out with the cake later on, but gave up after the first homeless person turned it down.

Even giving the cake away was harder than I’d imagined.

A photograph of a phanouropita cake being held in a bundt pan with a lacy dishcloth.I’m not sure what compelled me to make a full-blown project out of the phanouropita, why I couldn’t just let it go. Maybe it was stubbornness. More likely, I harbored some masochistic hope that if I kept pressing the sore, hollow spot I felt—if I kept making the cake—eventually I’d discover what was missing. I gave away cake after cake, sometimes leaving them next to sleeping homeless people, other times donating them to the church or giving them to friends. I tried different recipes and meditated on more specific prayers: perhaps the saint could find me a new client after all, or a magazine willing to take a story. I started keeping score: cakes baked, prayers answered. I prepared the same recipe in a purgatorial loop, sifting and mixing week after week, waiting for something to happen.

While I waited, I decided to take classes in food writing and offered my services as a recipe tester. I began developing and sharing my own recipes as well, wading slowly into the blogging community. I got to know the owners of Greek bakeries and specialty shops, and wherever I encountered Greeks, I made sure to ask about the cake, unearthing anecdotes about the mysterious saint. I found women who swore that Phanourios had found them a husband, or health, or a tenant for an empty apartment. Salt cellars appeared, as did wayward legal documents. The secondhand testimonials were inspiring and only intensified my craving for an outcome I could call my own.

During the first weeks of 2010, the scorecard for Phanourios stood at 11–0. I’d baked 11 cakes and none of my prayers had been answered.

Sure, the repeated act of baking and giving away a modest cake had brought me a keener sense of purpose. Yes, its traditions shoved me out into the world again, where I was interacting with people who shared my interests, especially food. And it was true that I wasn’t exactly alone anymore, rattling around inside a disconnected life. I’d found—or had been shown—new ways of engaging with others, ways that went beyond the confines I had assumed were inevitable for a stay-at-home mom, a home-alone wife, and a freelance professional whose desk was the dining table and who worked, next to piles of wrinkled laundry, on assignments for clients I never saw.

Suddenly I was stunned by my lack of insight. I’d been waiting for something that hadn’t arrived. Yet the saint had delivered the one thing I’d been missing most of all: connection. He’d done this even when I didn’t know to ask for it by name.

As for the things I did request, from that moment, they started coming, too, fast and furious through the rest of the year. New clients in the city, lucrative projects, recipe contests, and publication—Phanourios and I went on a tear. I began to think of this mysterious martyr, this solider with a sweet tooth, as my patron saint. I continued to haul his cakes around town, making them for charity events and giving them to strangers down on their luck. But the quid pro quo was over, and I stopped keeping score. There was no need to think about it anymore. Baking the cakes was now just something I did, often on Sundays—something that fed my spirit at the end of a rewarding week’s work.

There’s a deliciousness to my days now that wasn’t there before, a gratitude for the many ways I now connect with others and make a more significant contribution to the world around me. I bake the cakes less frequently, that’s true. Writing, recipe development, family life, and a full client load take up most of my time. Tomorrow, though, August 27, is the feast day of Saint Phanourios. Tonight I will bake the twenty-sixth cake in his honor. I’ll sift powdered sugar gently over the top, slice it, and have some in the morning with coffee. When I do, I’ll say a grace for all the ways my life has changed in the past year. As for giving the cake away, with my recipe for phanouropita—and a sense of what’s possible—I give it to you.



  1. Allison, what a great article. I love Saint Phanourios. He helps me and my family all the time, today even. I loved your description of finding an Orthodox Saint even though that is somewhat new to you. And I loved how you connected with your being a quarter Greek. Your story was so much fun to read. When I got to the part about how you mixed for 9 minutes, I couldn’t stop laughing. And then at the end where you realized after making all those cakes, all along your wonderful Journey you found what you were looking for, and all because of making this phanouropita. That just brought tears to my eyes. What a beautiful thing. I’m so happy for you. God is wonderous in his Saints. God is truly wonderful.

  2. Your story is an inspiration to me. I am happy I went looking for the recipe when I received an email from our church about a Saint I did not know about. His story, your story and the recipe will forever be in my kitchen. ~ Thank you.

  3. Dearest Allison,
    Your mission of St. Phanourios is beautiful. And, if I may be so bold, it sounds to me like you have found your TRUE home. You will see. One day you may see that Orthodoxy is for you. Blessings to you!

  4. Thanks for your story about St. Phanourios. I found it while doing some research on an icon of him, given to my mother while she lived on Crete. I’ll have to try making the cake.

    St. Phanourios Icon

    1. Thank you Naomi for sharing this beautiful rare icon of Saint Phanourios. I’ve never seen this icon before. God is truly wondrous in his Saints.

    2. I came across this page while looking through images of St. Phanourios and it’s your icon that caught my eye. I’m thankful to both you and Allison for finding so much information about St. Phanourios. I live in Varna, Bulgaria, where it seems the saint was greatly revered by the local Greek families. I have a question for you: What is the saint holding in his left hand?

      1. Hello, Temenuga. Thanks for stopping by and commenting. I am not sure if you’re responding to the more traditional icon originally accompanying this post, or the icon that another person, Naomi, included a few comments earlier than yours. Most traditionally, St. Phanourios is depicted holding a lit candle (I’ve never seen an icon without the candle, as the saint’s name itself is derived from words meaning “to reveal,” hinting at illumination), and sometimes a sword, other times a cross (as with the image originally posted here at Leite’s Culinaria). The image posted by Naomi… I’m not sure what he’s holding. I assume one hand has a candle or candles (long, slim tapers). The other hand looks like it’s holding a branch — maybe a very elongated rendering of an olive branch or bay laurel? I’d be very interested to know if the Bulgarian Greek families also bake the phanouropita. Regardless, I hope you find whatever it is you’re looking for in the new year.

        1. Hello, Allison 🙂 My question was about Naomi’s icon, namely what the branch was. After writing here I found on the Internet two icons of St. Phanourios where he was holding a palm branch – probably a symbol of his martyrdom. Maybe this is a palm branch too? I would be very thankful if Naomi could help. And now to your quesion 🙂 Yes, I know that the local families also used to make phanouropita. Sadly, I couldn’t find any local lady having the recipe. I found, however, a recipe on a Bulgarian website. There are some additional ingredients in the Bulgarian version: in the dough there are also orange zest and raisins, and the pita is sprinkled with sesame seeds on top. Thank you very much for the wishes 🙂 I’m planning to make the phanouropita myself one of these days 🙂

    3. It is indeed a lovely icon. Sorry it’s been so long since you posted, Naomi, and I’m only seeing it now. (Looks like I have to reactivate my notifications, which I’m doing as I post this reply.) I hope your research was productive–looks as though it was–and that you did decide to make the cake. Above all, hope you always find what you’re looking for! ~ Allison

      1. Dear Allison,

        From one half-Greek to another: Thank you for this beautiful, spiritual, and profound story.

        Na zisis!


        1. Chrysaetos,
          Thank you for taking the time to read and comment. I hope you make the cake some time, but in any event that you always find what you’re looking for.

  5. G’day! What a beautiful story to share, true!
    Thank you for indirectly today inspiring me to make an adapted version of this cake….as was looking for the recipe I saved and “forgot” where I put it…then all of a sudden, your story appeared to me by divine intervention too!
    Cheers! Joanne
    Now on FB too

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